A prayer for the future...

To my future husband,

I pray that the day we meet it will be an ordained day filled with all the happiness that comes from meeting the first time. I pray that the journey we’ll begin together will be a journey guided by the Holy Spirit. I pray that our journey will be filled with purity from the start till the very end. I pray that even though during our journey we may have to cross river Jordan or walk in the desert for a few days, we’ll keep our trust in God and look up to Him for the day we arrive in Canaan.  I pray that the on that day when we finally say “I Do”, it will be a day when it wouldn’t matter what we’ve had to go through in our lives because we’ll finally have met each other.

I pray that we’ll always feel safe in each others presence. That we can tell each other everything without any fear of judgment. The good, the bad and the downright ugly. I pray that no matter what we’ll happen between us, I know that you’ll always be there. And that honesty will be our guiding principle. I pray that we’ll be comfortable with each other to a point of being silly together, a point of being mad at each other but still comfortable to know that we still care for each other, a point of trusting one another that it will always be us against the world, and comfortable to even tell one another the embarrassing moments, the scary moments, the uncertain moments and most of all, we’ll be able to share our joys together. I pray that the journey you are on now is a journey that’s leading you closer to God since that’s the only way we can be assured of strength when our own fail. I pray that you faithfulness and trust in God is enough to cover both you and me. Because God knows there are times I will need you to be strong for the both of us.

 

I pray that the children God will bless us with will be the source of your joy…joy that can only be brought when they come into our lives. I pray that they will be the reason you wake up everyday. And that you will ask for directions and guidance from God since there is no ultimate manual for parenting. I pray our children will one day make us proud and that they will be your greatest achievement in life. I pray that the under- baked cake your 6year old daughter will have made will be the best cake you’ll ever eat. I pray that the drawing your son will draw for you, even though the only thing he knows how to draw is stick figures, will be your most prized possession. I pray that you will give them up to the Lord because the parenting job gets easier with Him around. I pray that when they turn into troublesome teenagers we’ll pray the most for direction, coz God knows, we will need it. And once they are done being teenagers and they are finding their direction in life in their twenties, I pray that we’ll be able to let them make their own choices but guide them all the same. I pray that you’ll have the strength to let go of your daughter on her wedding day knowing that the prayers you’ll have made for her, will keep her well.

I pray that when we are old and senile, we’ll still be able to look at each other with the same eyes we first looked at each other. I pray that when we look back at the life we’d have lived, we’ll be able to hold hands and thank the Lord for the far He’d have brought us. I pray that our story will be a story that will inspire generations to come to stick it out in marriage and that they will know that when something gets broken, you don’t throw it out, you fix it. I pray that when our grandchildren come to visit, we’ll ask for strength from God because their energy and the love they have to offer may be too strong for our aging bodies. I pray that we’d have raised our children to be the best that they can be and that the lessons we’d have taught them, will be passed to their children. And when that day comes, I pray that we’ll be walking together on the streets of heaven rejoicing and praising our Savior for eternity.

Truly blessed and highly favored

The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything. The just make the best of what they have. Rich is the man whose greatest wealth is not money. As a famous quote goes: The poorest person is he whose only wealth is money. There’s an old  Sunday school song that just blesses my heart:  count your blessings name them one by one, count your blessings see what God has done count your blessings name them one by one, and it will surprise you what the Lord has done.

 My birthday is coming up in a few hours time …yeeey…. and I look back at the years I’ve lived and my life is filled with joy, love, happiness and God’s blessings everyday. So as I count down the hours, I am also counting my blessings and naming them one by one. Life is not about the breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away…

My father is one man I look up to. He’s the definition of what a man really is. I have never lacked a day in my life, and I don’t know about you, but for me that is more than a blessing. And out of the many wonderful attributes he has, his greatest is his generosity.

My mom is a woman whose love courage and determination has seen my siblings and I through the years. To others she’s referred to as Miss Morgan coz of her strict nature, to others she’s the happy woman, to others she’s Mama Brenda, but to me, she’s my loving mother.

I am privileged to have a sister who is also my friend. Someone who really knows me and still loves me all the same. To my lovely sister, Family made us sisters, life made us friends.

My brother is a handful and though many are the times you’ve pushed my patience to the limit, you are one man who’d make drop everything I have for you.

I have a best friend who works for a major local TV station but will always make time for me whenever I need her. Even when I have non-relevant boy problems.  Robert bault said “I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar”

I have a friend who truly defines the meaning of “a friend in need is a friend indeed”. My dear namesake, it’s been 9 years, but like wine our friendship has grown better with age.

I have friend who prays for me even when I forget to pray for my self. And as Janice Hughes said “Rich is the person who has a praying friend.” 

I am privileged to have a friend who I’ve known since I was in class one and who always looks out for me. And I know that no matter what direction life takes us, I know for a fact that nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not still friends.

I have a friend who cares much about me that the other day he called and before we even spoke he was apologizing because he was worried that I’d not forgive him for forgetting my birthday even though the day has even arrived.

You never realize how weird your friends are until you have to describe them to someone else

 I have a friend who the circumstances, under which we met, can only be described as weird, but over the years, we’ve become very good friends. He gives me unbiased advice and his opinion is one I truly value. He’s the only reason I read pulse.

 I have a learned friend whose definition of teaching you something is, pushing you in the deep end of the pool and shouting “swim”...no warning before hand, no time to even change to a swim suit. This quote best describes us “The only reason God didn’t make us sisters is because one mom couldn't handle us both’’

I have friends who work miles and miles away..One in lodwar, another in garissa but still distance has had no effect to our friendship.

I have friends who are so rooted in the word of God, that their zeal encourages me to keep the faith.

I have client who’s just not a client. I don’t go to their office in a hurry coz for us, it’s just not business as usual.

I have a friend who’s an awesome DJ…so, my wedding is already sorted.

I have another friend whose photography will blow your mind away… so yes, again, my wedding is sorted.

I have a friend who’s so full of life and so fun to be around with that the day he got his national i.d. he sent me a photo of it!

I am privileged to have more than one family. You guys make my Sundays each time and a Sunday spent away from you is not a complete one for me. Seekers and cradle team, you fill my life with joy. And not forgetting my crossroads family.

I’ve been blessed to have work colleagues, who make going to work something to look forward to.

Sometimes we need to be hurt in order to grow. We must fail in order to know. We must lose in order to gain. Some lessons are learned best through pain.  I’ve been hurt and even taken advantage of by some but am grateful that I’ve experienced love from those who gave it to me.

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. I have friends that I haven’t mentioned in this post but am grateful for the footprints you’ve left in my heart. I still have a long way to go but am not worried about the future. I have my own share of challenges but as you can see, I am surrounded with love and this far, I’ve been truly blessed and highly favored!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ME!

...MEDIOCRE LOVE...

So I spent the whole of last week but one rehearsing for a play which I might say was truly amazing!!! Its been a while since I did something major on stage and it really felt amazing. The props, the lighting, the costumes, the sound, and not forgetting the amazing people I met! One particular person struck me the most and he’s the reason as to why am writing this post/article.

For the sake of his identity I won’t mention names but he’s a new friend. He’s those people who you meet and immediately like them. For one (and I know he’ll never let me forget this), he has those cute baby faces with an amazing smile. And mostly he has a really awesome heart. 

Anyway before I digress and forget the main point in all this, my new friend has a huge crush on another friend of mine. He has those cute puppy love crushes we once had when we were teenagers and since he’s one, am guessing he’s allowed to have it. Anyway, as we were talking somewhere in the week he was telling me how whenever he sees ‘his lady’ (even though he hasn’t officially asked her out at least in real life) he has this unexplainable feeling. And he even gave this weird explanation. Since we were standing next to a pole, he said ‘if she were the pole, he would want to stand there all day long’ and just be around her vicinity. And you should see how he was aimlessly staring at her during rehearsal. It was cute to see it and it got me wondering.

What happens to us when we grow a bit older? We are so afraid to truly express our true emotions to the people we really care about. We are so worried about what they’ll say and what other people will say. We want to do our best in everything except when it comes to love. We do things half way when it comes to relationships because we want to keep one foot in and one foot out …just incase something happens, we want to have a way out. A lee way somewhere, an exit strategy… what   happened to being crazy in love…keyword being ‘crazy’…I mean there are a million and one songs out there and a majority of them have to do with love. What is this crazy unexplainable feeling called love. They say love is not a feeling it’s a choice. We feel feelings of liking somebody then we go ahead and CHOOSE to love them. They say that there is always a child inside each and every one of us…but what happens when it comes to love...that inner innocent child who loves with no restrain is locked in and the key thrown away!

There are people who dedicate their lives to their jobs, business and they give their all…but why do we do mediocre things when it comes to love.  Why do we take the people we love or who love us for granted. Why do we always assume that they are meant to be there and that since we know that they know that we love them, we don’t need to tell them anymore or show them…i Googled quotes on love and I found a billion of them, but there’s one that really struck me…unless its mad, passionate, crazy love, I don’t want it! There are too many mediocre things in life, LOVE shouldn’t be one of them.

My prayer is that God will teach me(us) how to love selflessly as He is the benchmark and ultimate definition of LOVE. For Love is patient, love is kind, love rejoices with the truth, it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. But all in all love never fails! May the love we give be nothing close to mediocre love.